Never Forget

Its official.
You are a Webb.
How does it feel?
From the picture you sure do look happy!
I'm happy for you.
My heart hurts, but thats okay.
It only hurts because it bleeds pure love.
You and your brother are together forever.
Nothing can tear you apart.
Don't let anything come in between you boys.
Ya'll are my everything.

I'm trying not to cry, but I can't help but think about that day in the hospital.
We were packed up and ready to go.
GiGi and Hops had gone downstairs and told me to take you to the nursery so I could shower.
As I held you I couldn't bring myself to move.
I was so scared that someone was going to come and take you away from me.
I was shaking and crying.
Crying so hard I couldn't breathe or see.
I just kept saying...
"No one is going to take you from me, baby.  No one."
I didn't want to lose you.

I still don't want to lose you.
I still want to be around.
I still want to be Mama B.
I still want you to look at me like you did in the hospital; studying my face.
You are part of me.
Nothing can change that.
I can barely go an entire week without coming to see you boys.
And you're so blessed you have a family that will allow that.
Don't ever take them for granted.
They've done so much for all of us.
Thank them everyday.
Always tell them you love them.
Never forget me.
Never forget that you're a gift straight from Heaven.
I love you!

Confused

I don't understand. I'm so confused. Why does he only love one when there's two? I don't want the questions to come but I know they will. The response I will give, I wonder still. He had a choice to make, a bed to lie in. I begged him to be a part but he lied again. We both wanted the best for you so I still come around. I guess for him it hurt too much, so he buried his feet into the ground. He says that's not true and believes its for the best. I say he's given up on you and only cares about himself. I wonder why every day why he won't see you but he'll see Bray. With you he has a choice. And he's made it. I only hope when the end comes he'll be at peace. My prayer is that he'll come around so you can meet your brother. Drew is not a bad guy but he doesn't love another. I love you my son so there is no worry. But please know and understand with him there is no hurry. You have an earthly father who loves you more than words. You have a Heavenly Father who made you in His hands. He'll never give up on you...He's the Daddy that never can. I love you!

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